Facing a Nightmare

Today I was told I would once again have to undergo a nightmare experience I had left in the past...its always hard to move on from an horrendous experience, but when you are forced to experience that horror again, it just makes you wonder if there is any point in having a real sense of hope in the concept of improvement and betterment. I must admit that of all the days in my life so far, today, at the age of 23, I feel least happy to be alive.